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Help me understand as I attempt to force the glimpses of revelation confined to note form into one coherent blog. I’m not my usual self right now and my thoughts cannot form without registering this trying unfamiliar fog. I could be sick, but with what is a question I’m not ready to asses. Instead I assume it’s a combination of exhaustion and ...
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Yay!! So nice to talk to someone [who listens *cough* male mutual firend *cough*] about all these intricacies in life. It’s hard though, the brick wall is unavoidable. At the end of the day at least half of the reasons I believe what I believe is because this particular illusion pushes the right psychological buttons and puts me at ease. I ...
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Please- anything
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I have the chills. What am I doing… numbing… Mental breakdown- Mental breakdown- Hips- cold.
I don’t why. I remember looking up at him.
But the kaleidoscope of phallic images was not what I thought I wanted.
Dancing- jagged sharp steps counter-intuitively stylized- I will forever know to count the beat and ride the wave of ...
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I’m pissed because I believed him when he said I didn’t get it- I believed him when he called me a filthy whore who couldn’t fathom a life of morals where hooking up for the sake of hooking up was blasphemy and self destructive- He made me believe that I lacked strength and willpower and that he refused to take advantage of my over generosity ...
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I’m freezing here alone
And there’s nothing I will do
The warmth in my control
And yet my troubles freezing too
I have a choice and no choice at all
With in the prison cell of being
I will not escape the confines,
This is who I tend to be
The ends are all the same
And the method of denial
What the human calls the self
Is naught ...
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Here I can remember that I’m alive, make sense of my mental and physical circumstance and offer myself to something or someone else out there: All without having to decorate my tone or phrasing to coax some defensive, condescending, skeptic into listening. In this machine, I don’t have to defend my intentions or exercise caution to limit ...
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I had a conversation with these two guys over break and for the first time, I picked up on the pervading insanity in the male species. Guys are nuts. But I know girls are nuts too.
I don’t know. I’ve been feeling bitter; really fucking bitter about the existence of relationship dynamics and the fact that having one is important to me at ...
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You know how I’m all about presenting internal conflicts despite the fact that self-care is deemed weak by society? As I believe Indifference is a pathetic disguise masquerading beneath the term “socially acceptable.” We are afraid to take care of our emotions simply because we would then be admitting vulnerability to intangible burdens. ...
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Hi Jordyn... How have you been? I'm not back yet but break is coming soon... Yay!! For now I'm mostly posting assignments.
Wakeful Being
Like Bathing in Candlelight
Swimming in the lull of warm
Sensation of beating, flowing, falling
Ripples at the navel
Like the ...