Sam is happy. Sam is happy. La la la la la. Alright. So we’ve established that step one is admitting you have a problem. Awesome. Step two is figuring out that you’re a crazy mother fucker just like everybody else on the planet. Step three is to admit you have feelings and emotions and to deal with them in healthy productive ways. Step four is figuring out that everyone else has feelings and emotions too and some people try to protect the fact that they are vulnerable by being ass-holes. (I promise you those people are unhappier than you inside, not that you should take comfort in their misery, only that you shouldn’t try to be an ass-hole to protect yourself) And step five is to realize that only you are in control of your happiness. (Listen to me; I sound like Buddha only I’m slightly slimmer and a lot more cynical) Ok wonderful. Now what? Then I recommend studying some philosophy or something, reading some self-help and psychology books, getting a therapist (If you can afford one, they rock, you pay a trained listener and helper to listen and help you, score!!), and really understanding the truth of your circumstance as the particular human being that you are.
Ok, now this is where I hate to be the bearer of bad news but I have made this mistake before and I want to spare myself and anyone else I can from making this mistake again…
Once you understand what you have to do, you have to practice doing it. And in order to practice you have to stay conscious of your new-found truths. Now how does one do that? Ah yes…
Writing helps. Writing blogs helps a little more. Therapy helps… But I think there are bigger steps one has to take. I think one of the best things you can do is to use your insight toward helping others. Not like in a preachy-did-I-ask-for-your-opinion? kind of way. But when someone does need help… help. Do some community service, write a blog, I don’t know… But teaching helps you learn. Have you ever noticed that? When you teach someone else, even a school subject, it really cements your understanding and/or brings the lack-there-of to your attention. So to with mentoring. I think. I don’t know I’m not there yet. Now, I would recommend a support group, like AA, or Alynon, there tons out there for everything really… But I do find these things get a little cultish. I mean they do. There are run by humans after all. Some of who are power hungry and some of whom would rather not think for themselves. I hate those dynamics. I’m not a strong enough person to look past and be unbothered by them. You might be. I don’t know. But also- It helps to write down what you learned. Sum it up as best as you can. And read it every day. Kind of like a prayer. But you’re not asking g-d to take care of you. You’re reminding yourself to take care of you.
So that is my advice to me and to you. I’m going to follow it and I’ll let you know how it goes. I do have a commitment to myself and my beautiful new laptop to be honest. So if one day I’m feeling miserable as *** and I can’t find the strength to be a gay little fruit cake. I’ll let you know. But all in all I just think life is too short to waste time being stuck… If you feel paralyzed you should spend some time figuring out why, and what to change, and how to change...
So here’s my brother. I fucking love this kid.
Telemarketer: Hi this is (*insert male name*). I’m calling on behalf of (*insert business name*). We would like to know if you are open to some of the new investment opportunities that we’re offering this season…
Mark: No I am not. I’m very narrow-minded and I’m not open to absolutely anything.
Dial-tone.
He’s so entertaining. Someone who is capable of that much thought and humor should channel it into something society has to offer. There really are so many possibilities now a day’s…
Anyway, Peace.