Heyy guys. So lets go back a couple weeks. Me and my friend Candice were talking about living to be 100. And Im like, "I dont even want to live to be 70. Im only, what, 16 and I already hate the world. Do you really think I want to live to be 100?" Its sad really. Example number 2. This morning, while checking my email, I came across a scholarship opportunity. It said "SUM UP AMERICA." I guess what your supposed to do is compile a bunch of pictures into a math equation summing up America. So I went to the website and it had a bunch that people have already done and most of them had stuff like patriotism, pride, freedom, integrity etc etc. And Im like, "Ok.." Because the first thing that came to my mind when doing this was a) poverty. b)greed. c)freedom? That kinda stuff. And its like. Man. Im horrible. Because, I mean, yeah. I love America. FREEDOM! Braveheart. Yeah. Id rather be here than anywhere else. But at the same time its like, we kinda suck. Please dont put me in the brig! I promise! Theres no treason going on here! Its just another example of how pitifully cynical and... negative I am. About EVERYTHING. And I pretty much blame people. The human race is responsible. Not me. Uh huh. Just the world. (Sarcasm?) But if anyone has read my essay, Im sure they can get a glimpse of why I think like this. Because, to be honest, people suck. I have to tell my friend Bekah that all the time. Someone who is her friend is being moody and yells at her. Cue Bekah: "I thought she was my friendd." *Sad face* Cue Me: "Bekah, people suck. Thats it. Welcome to the world." I guess eventually everyone realizes this. I dont know if its a blessing or a curse that I have figured it out at the ripe old age of 15. Ho hum. I kinda hate blaming people for this. Because, its not really anybodys fault. Its just the way things turn out. Its human nature to be retarded. :] Of course I forgive people because Im retarded as well. See? Now I got myself on this HUGE rant and now I look like a terrorist, an anti-social high school girl, and an angry old lady with a lot of cats. Oh, and Im very stereotypical as well. *sigh* But honestly? Im not mean. Im not a bad person. I just get miffed at certain points in the day, complain to my friends about it, and then its over until the next annoying thing happens. Ok,ok. I have considered it and now I know what has fueled this rant. A combination of: Caffeine, tiredness, The Used, and Ohio is for Lovers. :\ Now that THATS figured out.
Hmmm. I really hope that whoever you are, you have given up on me. Id hate to waste your time anymore.. :o Well, if only for today. We'll see if Im more coherent next time.